
Singing through the night

An ugly duckling: My cancer journey begins

Epilepsy entered (Written 20 Mar 2021)
Blog Introduction
My parents started telling me about Jesus before I even could understand. And from the dawn of my memory, I wondered why, if God truly lives in me, and loves me, I couldn’t feel him there. To me, He wasn’t real, and it worried me. My dad said that the mere fact that I thought about God, meant His Holy Spirit was pulling me towards God. However, God remained a distant idea as I continued through childhood, into my teens. And then a couple of things happened that sent me running from, instead of to, God. Many wild turns down dark streets later, I ended up fractured and desperate for help. I’ve tried killing my pain with pleasure, tried seeking help from psychologists and counselors, but still, I remained a mess.
Finally, I cried out to Jesus, and He saved me. And for the first time, I didn’t need to wonder if He lived in me. Because I felt his presence, I heard his voice, and I saw visions of Him. I yearned for an intimate relationship with Him, and being able to have two-way conversations was, for me, a crucial part of having such a relationship. So I embarked on a journey of discovering how God speaks to me, through the Bible, His still small voice inside of me, through nature, dreams, and visions. Over the years, God has poured words into my heart that I have written down. Those words are what I share here with you.
Although no two relationships are the same, I hope that by sharing glimpses of my relationship with Jesus, here, I might help you draw near to Him, encourage you on your journey of faith, and help you discover how He speaks to you.
May God guide you to the specific words, meant for you.
Dreams
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A voice boomed from heaven. “In time to come, there will be a famine, not of food, but of words of the Lord. Demonstrate what that will be like.”
Instantly the group aged...

The cutting (9 Dec 2020)
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Royal Wedding (3 Nov 2018)
Suffering
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An ugly duckling: My cancer journey begins

Fear (Written 30 Mar 2021)

Divorce (Written 26 Mar 2021)
A couple of times we sang the song, ‘Blessed be your name’, by Matt R...
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Philippians 1A: A series of reflection on scripture

Keys of the Kingdom

The Kingdom of Heaven (17 Nov 2016)
A vision, of Jesus, hanging on a cross flashed before my eyes. And then, understanding dawned in my heart.
Heaven is a kingdom ruled by a King who loves his people so much,...
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Near-accident

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Delivered from smoking Feb 2013 (Written Nov 2017)
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Worship
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A good-bad day
a problem I can’t solve, but must.
Instantly I’m off the rails,
yet You whisper, “Trust!”
My lips, an angel guards.
Your Spirit guides my mind
through flaming enemy darts
to a solution, I couldn...

Strength in weakness
You leave Me room to be strong -
to tame the words you speak
and show you where you’re wrong.
Your heart breaks, your face wet with tears,
as you understand what you have done.
I rush to your sid...

Not like you
The understanding you gain -
a glimpse of what is real.
Your attempts to figure out
the unseen world, in vain.
You simply cannot grasp
of My love, of my power -
the width, the breadth, the hei...
Scribblings
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Headline encourages (6 Sep 2020)
I read the article and was happy for Faith that she recovered. But because I was consumed with worry while I awaited the results of a biopsy I had...

White bunny - a sign?
